Some of my first blogs

Lol they're not good, actually they SUCK, but it kinda brings back memories :0)

Keep in mind that they are short due to the fact that I was using a cellphone that only allowed 500 characters in a blog at a time.

My first alias I used was 'Dune'. Of course because I absolutely love the Dune novels written by Frank Herbert. That alias is now blocked lol and unfortunately the blogs only go back to about November 2006 (I had the bad habit of deleting my blogs). Oh...and excuse the language hehe

Dune 1
Dune 2
Dune 3
Dune 4
Dune 5
Dune 6

'Angelzbreeze' Blog:

Angelzbreeze 1
Angelzbreeze 2
Angelzbreeze 3
Angelzbreeze 4
Angelzbreeze 5
Angelzbreeze 6
Angelzbreeze 7

'Xanthe' Blog:

Xanthe 1
Xanthe 2
Xanthe 3

Why do I blog?

I never asked myself the question really. Today I did, for some strange reason.

Most people have different motives for blogging, my reason wouldn't be that unique as I thought, I guess.

When I started, more than two years ago, I had different reasons than I do now. I was caught up in an abusive relationship, with a very obsessed and possessive man who hardly allowed me to have contact with my parents, much less have friends.

I used to write down my thoughts, sometimes in the form of a letter. I remember writing poetry, back then I had no access to the internet and the closest I could get was by using WAP on my cellphone.

One day I was searching something on google, I was depressed at the time, not to mention angry and frustrated. I stopped writing poetry and letters etc. because this man would go out of his way to find the things I wrote and they (him and his mother) told me that it just showed how unstable I am and they hid everything to use against me.

I stumbled across a blog on a mobile chat site, I knew that I could use that as a way to write again, without them ever knowing. There it began and it was on that same mobile site that I met Andy, my fiance.

When I started this blog, I was focused on my relationship. Then I moved to Guernsey and decided to keep on blogging, but for a different reason.

I use it as a type of journal, that helps me to remember all the small details as I know I'm going to need it when I have to go to court again. My other reason and possibly the most important reason, is so that I can show my children the truth one day. Here I may be able to edit, but I won't be able to change everything.

Ofcourse it also helps me to get rid of my anger and frustration, I have to admit that I feel alot better after writing a blog in which I threw a huge tantrum ;o) hehe

I have decided a while ago to tell my story as it happened, I soon will and then I'm going to start a bit of poetry and maybe focus on a few different topics that affected my life.

At least it keeps my mind busy and I don't get so depressed when I blog because I have less time to be negative.