Starting Again

It's ridiculous just how many times I've started typing a post for this blog and simply ending up deleting it or it stays in my drafts. I could just never bring myself so far as to actually posting something meaningful. Maybe it's because so much has happened and so many things have changed that I don't really know where to begin, I'm not sure but this is really no easy task. Years have passed... Yet I still have this feeling bugging me, as if there is something I have to do. I know I said that I would be moving my blog to my site, but I've decided against that. Having this blog is my more personal side and reading through my old posts just shows me how much I have grown and learned as a person. I will therefore continue to post about my experiences here.

My New Site And Blog

I started this blog more than two years ago. The last post I made was more than a year ago, but I never forgot about this blog or the reason why I started it. Cheeky Thoughts was the start of what has now developed into a website called Parental Alienation - South Africa . Please visit my site and my new blog.

Sensing that it's the end

Today, a year ago, I must've been the happiest girl in the world. It was the day Andy came to SA to meet me. It was the most amazing feeling, knowing that this guy learned to love me enough to travel halfway across the world just to meet me. It felt unreal...
The day I finally saw him for the very first time I felt so comfortable. I knew that I would love him for the rest of my life, he used to say the same.
A year has passed and things have changed.
Ever since I came back to SA we started drifting apart. Every day that passed, I could feel him slip away a little further. It wasn't his fault, I'm mostly to blame and I am more than willing to admit it.
He hasn't admitted it yet, but I can sense that he doesn't want to continue with this relationship and I can't and will never blame him coz he probably put up with more than anyone I ever knew before could ever manage.
He supported me through my court cases and he was there for me and cared for me while I was ill, I will never forget what he did for me but I want him to be happy and that is why I will let him move on without putting up a fight.
He deserves all the love and happiness in the world for being such a wonderful, caring and loving person.
I will always love him though, just as I always have.