You see this <-- picture? That's me today. I'm frustrated and angry. No wait, I'm furious.

Actually, I've calmed down a bit but I can still feel the anger. Still, it's no use.

I tried phoning Lili earlier...no answer.

I phoned Dolf's cellphone, his home, his cellphone, his home, his wife, then his home again. No answer.

At least, now Lili knows and even though I didn't phone on Thursday because I was too sick and I was mostly sleeping, today I won't stop and Monday I am phoning the social worker. It's a bit of a consolation to know that I have a social worker to talk to now.

Then I tried phoning Johan to speak to Xaynee. Again, he wasn't with her and I'm starting to wonder about that. He tried to keep me on the phone, trying to manipulate and intimidate me again. I told him that I'm sick and that I'm in no state to go back at the moment so he backed off a little. He said that he'll give me a missed call when Xaynee is with him, I'm still waiting...