Nobody is perfect

Since I came here I have learned so much. Life really is different over here but the most important lesson I learned was from my mother-in-law-to-be. She is an amazing woman although I don't think she even realizes it. I learned from her that we all make mistakes and that it is ok because we learn from it and it makes us who we are. She also showed me to not be ashamed about it and that by being open and honest about and to ourselves we can teach other people that life was never meant to be perfect. I used to be a perfectionist. By that I mean that I was the type of person who would rather do things myself than run the risk that someone else may do it wrong. I wanted to be the perfect mother and I wanted the perfect life. I felt ashamed and never talked about my mistakes I made and I hated criticism. Even as a child I simply had to be the best in everything that I did and I got frustrated whenever I made mistakes during my school exams or do the best in sport. The things I couldn't do perfect I just left. I am also extremely focused on hygiene and cleanliness and I could never understand how other people can't be like that. I felt like I was losing control whenever I lost control over a situation and that made me depressed. After coming here I gradually accepted myself as a normal human being who can't make everything right. I am not ashamed of my past or about the mistakes I made anymore. I am a good person and I am happy.