My Sun Princess

My daughter Helicia's name is derived from the Greek god Helios. I used to call her my little sun princess.

She always loved fairies and stories about fairies and angels. When I saw this picture named Sun Fairy, a copyright from Danielle Fekete of Elfwood, I was staring at it, thinking about my little sun fairy and how she would love to see this picture.

Well, as it turns out, I phoned again tonight and my little girl answered the phone.

I was startle to hear her voice at first, but I was determined to let her know the truth and I told her that her father haven't been answering his phone. What shocked me was that she wasn't surprised, she knew. She said she wanted to talk to me but that she knows he hasn't been answering the phone. It's sad to think now how careful she was in answering my questions, she didn't want her father or step-mother to know. She also said that she was at home when I phoned earlier and sh asked me when I was comig back.

She was excited about her birthday present, I told her that it's a cellphone and told her that I'll give it to her when I'm back in SA. Andy wants to buy her a DS too, she is absolutely going to love it.

She told me that she wants to talk to my parents, I then asked her if it'll be ok if they phoned at 20:00 and she said: "mmm, uh uh", as if she knew she won't be allowed to talk to them. I told her that I'll ask my parents to phone tomorrow then and she said that would be ok. Most of her answers was "uh" for yes, or "uh uh" for no.

I feel so sorry for my daughter. She knows exactly what is going onand there is nothing she can do about it.

When I asked her about her school, she said that she is in Bloemfontein Primary School, and as far as I know, there is no such school in Bloemfontein. That means that she hasn't been placed back in school or she wasn't sure if she was allowed to tell me in which school she is.

I told her that she must remember what the social worker told her and that she doesn't have to tell her father anything about what we talked about. She just said yes. She sounded so happy to talk to me, but so sad about what is going on.

I wish I could just make everyting ok for her, I will keep on fighting and I won't give up. Not now, not ever.

After I spoke to her, I started crying, I didn't want her to hear me cry. I was too scared that if I upset her too much, she will start crying again and that Dolf will take the phone.

When is this going to end???