Why do I blog?

I never asked myself the question really. Today I did, for some strange reason.

Most people have different motives for blogging, my reason wouldn't be that unique as I thought, I guess.

When I started, more than two years ago, I had different reasons than I do now. I was caught up in an abusive relationship, with a very obsessed and possessive man who hardly allowed me to have contact with my parents, much less have friends.

I used to write down my thoughts, sometimes in the form of a letter. I remember writing poetry, back then I had no access to the internet and the closest I could get was by using WAP on my cellphone.

One day I was searching something on google, I was depressed at the time, not to mention angry and frustrated. I stopped writing poetry and letters etc. because this man would go out of his way to find the things I wrote and they (him and his mother) told me that it just showed how unstable I am and they hid everything to use against me.

I stumbled across a blog on a mobile chat site, I knew that I could use that as a way to write again, without them ever knowing. There it began and it was on that same mobile site that I met Andy, my fiance.

When I started this blog, I was focused on my relationship. Then I moved to Guernsey and decided to keep on blogging, but for a different reason.

I use it as a type of journal, that helps me to remember all the small details as I know I'm going to need it when I have to go to court again. My other reason and possibly the most important reason, is so that I can show my children the truth one day. Here I may be able to edit, but I won't be able to change everything.

Ofcourse it also helps me to get rid of my anger and frustration, I have to admit that I feel alot better after writing a blog in which I threw a huge tantrum ;o) hehe

I have decided a while ago to tell my story as it happened, I soon will and then I'm going to start a bit of poetry and maybe focus on a few different topics that affected my life.

At least it keeps my mind busy and I don't get so depressed when I blog because I have less time to be negative.