We took a walk around the reservoir today, it really is beautiful over here and so different to South Africa. It's hardly spring and everywhere you look it's green and there are bunnies and daisies everywhere.
While we were walking I was thinking alot and I decided to kinda write my story here in my blog. I was thinking of how my life started on the internet way back when the only way I could connect was with my phone and it cost me a fortune in South Africa. I wasn't always popular and I know now that it might have been because of my straightforwardness and people tend to think of me as being rude.
My depression also started worrying me and thinking back, I know that it might be because of my past. Sometimes I feel guilty for being the way I am because I have the most caring and loving man in my life now and he really doesn't deserve this. The only way I can see that I will be able to work on this is by opening up.
Since I'm not the kind of person that talk to people about my problems or the way I feel, maybe I can do it this way. I'm not bothered about what people think and I can also see a positive side in it, that maybe I can learn something and help someone out there by telling my story, even if it is in bits and pieces.
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