Depressed

I've been depressed for a while now. Today I didn't even get out of bed and tonight I couldn't stop crying. Andy gave me a sedative to calm me down. I miss my children so much... I'm trying so hard to stay strong but it's hard and I'm worried that me being like this will cause me to lose Andy. I love him so much but at the same time I feel guilty about my children and there isn't much I can do about my situation. Lili's dad still won't answer his phone when I call and I'm getting more and more angry and upset.